Clay as Memory
Porcelain, earthenware, and stoneware all have deep histories within ceramics. Clay has held close relations with humans since the first ceramic objects entered the home. Each ceramic piece can create a personal memory for the maker and receiver. It is because of the possibility for deep personal connection that I choose to work within this medium. I am interested in the significance of memories, and the implications they can have in life. The inspirations for my sculptures come from a recollection of my own past- made square through clay.
Exploring my own memories, I create sculptures that reference my experiences. Using the clay as a surrogate for my body, I manipulate the form and alter the shape of the clay to represent my changes, physically and emotionally. A violent memory of being physically struck in the head by a 2x4 is reconciled with the flame of the kiln.
My process starts with a mold made from the same object that changed and altered my body- the 2x4. While making the sculptures, I force the clay into the mold, impacting it over and over again. Next, repetitive carving becomes a personal meditative process that refines the clay’s shape. This juxtaposition of violent molding and pensive carving are embraced by the intricate pattern of the doily. Historically used to protect fine furniture, -now referencing the fragility of memories and their need for protection. There is a relationship between the aggressive creation of the sculptures and the delicateness of the doily that relates the clay as my conceptual substitute.
While carving the blocks, I enter a place where I can focus on my personal memories, good and bad, and feel in control. I create the clay body, I mold the clay, and I am in control through to the firing. This sense of control allows me to focus on my intangible thoughts, working it out in clay. The blocks are like my memories, guarded and strong, yet personal and fragile.
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